And Yet Still More Random Thoughts

Talking To People About God

September 12, 2007
 

JJD: Most people with problems already have the answers

 

Ansley: then why dont i have the answers to mine?

 

JJD: Well what are they?

 

Ansley: oh its just stupid things

 

JJD: Do you want to talk about them?

 

Ansley: nah its ok, thanks anyway

 

JJD: you sure?

 

Ansley: idk….i am stressed out about all the things i have to do for classes

 

JJD: Well just tell me this - why do you think they're stupid?

 

Ansley: because next to the problems that other ppl have they seem small

 

JJD: But they're not small to you

 

Ansley: no

 

JJD: And that's what we're talking about

 

Ansley: i want to stay here where i go to college but i cant afford to and i miss my family. i dont know if the fact that i cant afford it is a test of my faith or a sign that i shouldnt be here

 

JJD: WHat happens if you go home?

 

Ansley: i go to college at the local community college, and hopefully get a job or something

 

JJD: And if you stay...?

 

Ansley: i have 80,000 in loans when i leave and have to find some way to pay them off… i didnt say that right…i mean that if i stay i will owe that much

 

JJD: Well let me ask you this - you said that you considered it a test of your faith? In other words, you don't know what God is trying to tell you? Is that right?

 

Ansley: right

 

JJD: So is it that you feel you need someone to tell you what it MEANS?

 

Ansley: i guess

 

JJD: That would be a real test of faith, don't you think? To allow someone else to speak for God?

 

Ansley: yes…i was hoping for a yes or no answer but thats not gonna happen

 

JJD: Well it's a yes-or-no issue, right? You stay or you go, One or the other

 

Ansley: i meant from God not u sorry….yeah right

 

JJD: Do you think asking for His direction in this matter is unreasonable?

Ansley: no

 

JJD: So your problem is then, not that He isn't giving you an answer, but that you lack the faith to hear Him?

 

Ansley: that could be

 

JJD: Well there's a very simple answer to that

 

JJD: James 1:5 If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him. But when he asks, he must believe and not doubt, because he who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind….It sounds easy, doesn't it?

 

Ansley: yeah it sounds easy, but to me it isn’t…i like tobe in control. that is why my major is business

 

JJD: You like to be in control

 

Ansley: yes

 

JJD: What do you think God tells us about that?

 

Ansley: i know what he says, we are supposed to let him control our lives

 

JJD: That sounds easy but n reality it's not, is it?

 

Ansley: nope

 

JJD: So....you lack wisdom? And you lack the ability to gain wisdom because of your pride? Would that be fair to say?

 

Ansley: yes

 

JJD: The answer to that seems easy, doesn't it?

 

Ansley: yes it does

 

JJD: What would it be?

 

Ansley: i would have to trust God more and let go of the want to be in control

 

JJD: What is the first thing you think when you wake up?

 

Ansley: honestly?

 

JJD: yes

 

Ansley: i think i dont want to get up and about all the things i have to do

 

JJD: You think about what you have to do, and you expect to be able to get certain things done, right?

 

Ansley: right

 

JJD: And you expect that certain things will happen as you get these things done....? What I mean is, you have tasks A, B & C planned out, and you expect that events D, E, & F will follow.....like, you'll get this paper done and you'll get an "A", you go on a job interview and you'll get the job.....am I right?

 

Ansley: yeah kinda

 

JJD: But they don't always happen that way? I mean, you don't always get everything done the way you want them to, and you don't always get the results you expect....right?

 

Ansley: right…then i stress out about the things that didnt get done or the things that went wrong

 

JJD: It seems like, in reality, you have very little control anyway

 

Ansley: that is true

 

JJD: Well what would happen then, if you woke up each morning and just prayed to God to just take over, and whatever happens just happens? Or something like that? In other words, to accept whatever comes?

 

Ansley: so i should turn each day over to God before it even starts .....right? thank you ...i think u are the only person who has listened to me and then actually had helpful advice…yeah my mom taught me something like that when i was little. i hadnt thought about it in a while

 

JJD: Well...I didn't actually give you any advice, I just asked questions

Ansley: lol but u knew which ones to ask

 

JJD: You came up with the answers yourself, Thats what I meant....that you had your own answers

 

Ansley: ok ic what u meant now

 

JJD: You'll still have things to do....it just means letting go of your expectations

 

Ansley: you should be a psychiatrist

February 21, 2007
 

*Q*: r u there?

 

JJD: yes

 

*Q*: the word trinity is not in bible so why believe on it? ive posed quest why trinity is basic believe, if that ve been removed by 32 christian scholars in revised standard version of bible

 

JJD: Does it matter?

 

*Q*: yes! why scholar removed it from revised edition , as they said it as fabrication n concoction?

 

JJD: I don't know….why does it matter?

 

*Q*: coz it explains that jesus, spirit n father r one, but scholars says that this is fabrication….why?

 

JJD: I don't know

 

*Q*: dont u think that this act shatter the basic belief of christianity

 

JJD: I don’t really. I think people choose what they want to believe and aren’t persuaded by arguments

 

*Q*: so tell me, who is god?

 

JJD: I can't tell you that, you have to find Him for yourself. It begins with wanting to know Him

 

*Q*: myself????? how

 

JJD: If all you wish to do is to tear down other's beliefs, then is it more important to be right than to seek God in your own heart?

 

*Q*: of course by reading scriptures that claims of devine origin

 

JJD: reading scriptures is a beginning, but you have to want to see truth there and not seek to tear it down, because whatever else you can say about the Bible, there is truth there

 

*Q*: ive started studying christianity but im confused by various versions of bible

 

JJD: Just pick one and study it…Read it, practice it

 

*Q*: there r so many religions claiming devinity

 

JJD: That’s what religion is

 

*Q*: how can one justify one of the religions

 

JJD: Do you not find truth in your own faith?

 

*Q*: is it that all religions r true? or only one is right?

 

JJD: Not that all religions are true, but that there may be truth in all religions

 

*Q*: of course only one should be

 

JJD: Let God be true, and every man a liar. Isn’t there truth in creation, in the rocks and the trees? Isn’t there truth in your own conscience, your own ability to reason?

 

*Q*: yes ur right

 

JJD: Seek God. If you seek him, then faith will grow

 

*Q*: there might be truth in all regions but all cannot b true

 

JJD: Of course they can't be

 

*Q*: what do u think, faith on god should b random or after searching the true religion

 

JJD: I think that you should be seeking God regardless of what your religion is

 

*Q*: i think no, as religion is more than faith

 

JJD: Of course it is. I think religion has more to do with culture than truth

 

*Q*: so we have to choose for only true religion

 

JJD: Listen if you seek God you will find Him....that He promises us....your understanding of Him and your faith in Him will grow, no matter where your understanding of Him begins

 

*Q*: n my logic says to test the truth

 

JJD: Test the truth. That's a good attitude

 

*Q*: what do u think bible is scripture, authentic witout changes

 

JJD: I don't know about all that. It sounds like a loaded question, like you’re trying to paint me into a corner. What I do know is that God speaks to me through truths that are in the Bible, but also through the Dammapada, through the entirety of creation. I even have a Koran. But I believe that the Bible is God's word

 

*Q*: one should know that, if u believe on it. thats what im doing….u said u have Quran?

 

JJD: yes. I have read bits of it but not all of it

 

*Q*: have u read that? dont u think taht both r word of god?

 

JJD: Well I think there is truth in the Koran, but I don't know if it's God's word

 

*Q*: u must believe. im doing the same, n ive found quran speaking abt trinity, not to believe on it. it talk abt jesus as God messenger

 

JJD: Well I think whatever you believe about doctrine and theology is less important than how open you are to God's revelation. Just continue to seek Him

 

*Q*: u have also read Quran?

 

JJD: I've not studied it too much but I have read parts, and also some texts on commentary. I'm not an expert or anything but I keep an open mind about things

 

*Q*: thats a good thing, we must do that

 

JJD: I think the more open we are to new ideas, the more we allow God to speak to us

 

*Q*: so what did u find there?  any thing appealing or rejecting?

 

JJD: Compared to the Bible, and the Dhammapada, the Koran seems very harsh and rigid

 

*Q*: harsh n rigid agianst what?

 

JJD: Well...I should say, it doesn't seem quite as bad about some things as the very orthodox, Old Testamenet type laws.....but it seems to focus more on what you DO in your day to day life......Do you know that many Christians have a faith that casts God in a very judgemental role? As if He is always angry at us. I don't believe that He is....That is not how God has revealed Himself to me

 

*Q*: u r right…he must b sweet

 

JJD: So tell me what you believe...?

 

*Q*: i believe that god must forbid us from wrongs n at the same time if we have done something wrong n what to revert back, he must b ready to give us shelter, love n hope

 

JJD: The KOran says that Muslims should seek common ground with both Christians and Jews (People of the Book) …Do you believe that?

 

*Q*: As i know Quran also claims that christian,n jews r followers of his messengers, mosses n jesus…n muslims r folower of Muhammd peace on all of them…so they must come to the common terms

 

JJD: Exactly. Aren't muslims also followers of the Prophet Moses? And the prophet Jesus?

 

*Q*: yes they r…Quran says that if someone believe on Muhammad but not onjesus n moses (peace on all of them), then he is not muslim

 

JJD: So why do you think there is conflict?

 

*Q*: what conflict?

 

JJD: Why do muslims fight jews? Why do Christians fight muslims?

 

*Q*: i think prob is that they r not in common terms as Muslims God told them, meaning to say, jews n christians r claiming messengers of god as son of god, n Jews donot consider Muhammad(PBUH) as messenger, rather they have hatred towards him

 

JJD: So you believe that the problem is that Christians don't agree with muslims?

 

*Q*: as i hve read in Quran............of course

 

JJD: And the solution is for everyone to believe in the Koran?

 

*Q*: they say Jesus is god but not messenger, so there lies the difference. solution 4 every one is to believe on truth n find which one of thse books is true not changed after its revelation

 

JJD: Do you not see why some people would find that attitude offensive?

 

*Q*: offensive for what? u mean agaist there religion?  NO, coz quran speak first to cum to common terms that to worship none but Allah, as was the message in all 4 revelation

 

JJD: Coming to common terms doesn't mean that we should all believe the same thing…People will always believe differently

 

*Q*: yes If there is some same thing

 

JJD: Common terms means that we recognize our differences, but focus on what we have in common so that we can move forward

 

*Q*: and there is Im sure same thing in all revelations, thats why i was telling u that there is no word trinity in bible….in fact the nearmost statement which seems to give the concept of trinity has been removed by hristian scholars as fabrication….i think they r coming to common terms

 

JJD: You seem to be hung up on this idea of the trinity

 

*Q*: whhat is common?

 

JJD: Is it ok that I believe in the TRinity?

 

*Q*: no its all right what do u think

 

JJD: Finding common ground means that we don't focus on this idea, but that we instead try to understand one another

 

*Q*: but shall i adress few common things bw islam n christianity? "Say not ‘Trinity’: desist: It will be better for you for Allah is one God. They do blaspheme who say Allah is one of three In a Trinity: for there is No god except One God. If they desist not From their word (of blasphemy), Verily a grievous penalty Will befall the blasphemers Among them."

 

JJD: Christians don't believe in 3 gods, they believe that God has three separate and distinct aspects

 

*Q*: i know that

 

JJD: So why do you focus on that one belief?

 

*Q*: coz Quran adress this concept of trinity n jesus himself never claim divinity n he says "I can of mine own self do nothing: as I hear, I judge: and my judgement is just; because I seek not mine own will, but the will of the Father which hath sent me." if father n son were one then why did he say, i seek not mine will if both were same

 

JJD: You're quoting the Koran to a Christian, and using that to support your argument that Jesus is not God? Are you seeking God in your heart, or are you simply trying to prove that Islam is true? People will always believe what they want to believe

 

*Q*: no im qoting u partly from bible…i can give u reffernce

 

JJD: It's irrelevant. I wouldn’t tell you that how you choose to understand God is wrong, but I will say that if you say that God can only be understood by your own religious perspective, then you're limiting what God can do in your life

 

*Q*: dont end it in this way. im just discussing

 

JJD: I'm not ending anything. I'm not offended…I'm listening to you. But don't you understand that I'm not trying to persuade you one way or the other? I understand that you have your own faith. All I'm saying is that you shouldn't focus on the idea that your faith is the only faith. I would say the same thing to a Christian or a Jew. Be open to what God wants to show you, even if it's outside the boundaries of what you already believe about Him

 

*Q*: the verse i quoted to u was The Gospel of John, chapter 5 verse 30

 

JJD: Ok                             

 

*Q*: n again write 2 u "I can of mine own self do nothing: as I hear, I judge and my judgement is just, because I seek not mine own will, but the will of the Father which hath sent me.” what will u sy on that

 

JJD: What am I supposed to say? Why are you trying to engage me in debate?

 

*Q*: no im not..dont take it like that…i ve just told u how it seems to me as it was for u

 

JJD: What else do you know of the New Testament besides that one verse?

 

*Q*: The Gospel of John, chapter 14 verse 28 "My father is greater than I."

 

JJD: What else do you know of Jesus and His teachings in the Gospels?

 

*Q*: why he said that? why if father n son were same?

 

JJD: You seem to know all the verses that support what you already believe. And you quote them with better English than you normally speak. I’m wondering if you’ve honestly read any of the Gospels with an open mind, or just learned bits and pieces from commentaries that are used to discredit Christians?

 

*Q*: what can i say t u as what i tell u u get offensive? correct me wid refference if im wrong

 

JJD: I don't need to....because I'm not asking you to abandon your own faith. And if I quote other Scripture, will that persuade you to abandon your own faith, your own family and your own culture to become a Christian? But you quote scripture to me, I'm asking you, have you READ the Gospel of John, and do you know what it means?

 

*Q*: ok …he said in the Gospel, "I and my Father are one." so this support devinity right?

 

JJD: You’re the one quoting it, what do you think?

 

*Q*: Do you know the context?"

 

JJD: No I'm afraid I don't

 

*Q*: To get at the context, we have to begin from verse 23 which reads "And Jesus (pbuh) walked in the temple in Solomon’s porch."

 

JJD: So you, a Muslim, are telling me how I should interpret Christian scripture?

 

*Q*: if u'll respond in that way it will b diff to understand the truth 4 me n u as well

 

JJD: I'm not trying to persuade you one way or the other

 

*Q*: ive like ur approach

 

JJD: I understand what you believe, I'm just asking that you be open to the possibilities that God's Truth may be bigger than your own faith

 

*Q*: u hve read other religion along with urs to get the truth so dont stuck with this if u say shall i continue quoting

 

JJD: That there may be more than one way to understand God, and that many of those ways might contain aspects of the truth? I believe that there is truth in Islam

 

*Q*: yes thats both of us trying to say 2each other

 

JJD: But I don't believe that Islam contains Truth in its entirety…And you try to engage me in debate about the validity of the Christian faith?

 

*Q*: no i believ that christians have very strong belief which is might b misrepresented to them, in fact i claim that im more christian with the faith which i have. when ever i give u references u close ur eyes towards truth.  why dont u give me explanation 4 that? im not apreacher, just wanna seek truth…even dont believe in my religion blindly

 

JJD: But you don't want to seek the truth.....you quote all the scriptures that support what you already believe, and then explain away all the ones that don't. Do you know what the Gospel of John teaches us about how we all should live our lives??

 

*Q*: not all scriptures, bible

 

JJD: Do you know what the Gospel accounts teach about mercy and faith and forgiveness?? Or have you sought truth in the teachings of the Buddha? You are very good at defending the faith of the Muslim

 

*Q*: n say u agree that ur scripture have the words written of my faith? sorry u agree that bible has some statement which belong to my faith

 

JJD: But what if God wants to show you something, or has some purpose for you, that is beyond the restrictions of your faith or culture? What then?

 

*Q*: u r right thats why im not reffering the Quran only im reading bible also, n it proves my claims, in fact bible n Quran r written by the same God but bible has been manipulated to some extent or misrepresented by scholars…what ever im saying is not from Quran, its from bible, n u tell me that im retricted to my faith, my faith, my faith but in fact im quoting from bible…so u have closed ur eyes from truth of bible not me

 

JJD: But you're using the Bible to prop up what you already believe

 

*Q*: u say that im seeking from my point of view

 

JJD: Yes

 

*Q*: bible supports me, im again saying clear me if if wrong i want justification to my inner to b wrong

 

JJD: You want me to prove to you that you're wrong?

 

*Q*: thats why im seeking guidance from Christian…u did not understand me, guide me if u can but dond get offensive

 

JJD: I’m not offended, but I can't guide you. I can offer you no proof that you're wrong, and I wouldn't want to. Only God can do that

 

*Q*: a good chritian must do

 

JJD: Do YOU think you're wrong????

 

*Q*: god will not cum to me now

 

JJD: Why?

 

*Q*: he has send u his revelation to justify it n explain it. i hve said this coz u r telling me that im bias in understanding towards faith, so u should tell me the right way of thinking

 

JJD: I don't have the right way that you should think. Only God does. Seek Him. Don't look for answers from me, or from any person. Look for answers from Him

 

*Q*: what i ahve today is not from any one else but from God, n u say its wrong. these r the answers which i got from God

 

JJD: I didn't say that you were wrong, I just said that your system of belief may not be complete

 

*Q*: but Quran n bible both claims that there will be final prophet by God with final revelation, so its complete

 

JJD: So everything that you know about God right now is all that you will ever need to know????

 

*Q*: no absolutely not…thats why i seek other devine books as well, old n new testament

 

JJD: But all you do is use those books to prop up what you already believe

 

*Q*: i hve found bible saying the same

 

JJD: You haven't read the Bible, you've read Muslim commentaries on the Bible

 

*Q*: brother shall i tel u one thing? if i had not read the bible from where i got references…im telling u chap n verse no. but shall i tell u one thing, during all that, u claiming being Christian, not even read ur own bible which speaks abt the truth…dont argue endlessly, only wid reference

 

JJD: I'm not arguing with you

 

*Q*: n u never did throughout this conversation?

 

JJD: I haven't defended my faith or challenged yours, I'm just asking that you be open to possibilities as God presents them to you, And not be so short-sighted as to believe that your faith is complete

 

*Q*: ok…do u think that ur faith is complete

 

JJD: No

 

*Q*: n u not short sighted? so what do u say? what u ahve to do now to get completion?

 

JJD: I say that I try to always be open to God in whatever manner that He presents Himself.  I won’t get completion until I meet Him

 

*Q*: u say that ur open in whatever MANNER he presents himself to u? but when i ve started telling u the other side of truth , u rejected it. is that ur open mind?

 

JJD: I didn't reject anything. I just didn’t agree with you, and rather than try to share your own faith with me, all you’ve done is try to show me why mine is wrong…I just didn't debate it with you

 

*Q*: well, i think both of us need time to think over it, not to reject both of us, n seek open heartedly

 

JJD: Don't think that just becuase I haven't agreed with everything you've said, doesn't mean you haven't challenged me. I am listening to you But....Instead of trying to tear down my own faith, if you would present your own faith to me, it would go a lot farther

 

*Q*: r u serious? checking me?

 

JJD: Yes. I'm just saying, Tell me why you're Muslim. What do you like about Islam? What does it give you, what is good about it? If you told me these things, I would be a lot more open to you. When you try to prove how Chritsianity is wrong, it doesn't help me….it doesn’t offend me, because I expect that as a Muslim you believe differently than me, but it doesn’t help me understand Islam

 

*Q*: im really sincere abt religion, n hope u would be

 

JJD: I believe you are, Which is why I haven't tried to tear down your faith

 

*Q*: b4 i continue, i never say christianity is wrong

 

JJD: You tried to argue about the divinity of Christ

 

*Q*: im chriastian more than christian

 

JJD: If you want to teach me about Islam, teach me

 

*Q*: coz i'll not be muslim then. dont say that brother. who am i to teach u? i'll just share what i know abt it, coz im not scholar, im just student

 

JJD: So share with me what it is to be Muslim, and don't tell me not to be Christian

 

*Q*: Chapter 112 of the Qur’an says "Say: He is Allah, The One and Only. "Allah, the Eternal, Absolute. "He begets not, nor is He begotten. And there is none like unto Him."

 

JJD: I agree

 

*Q*: u agree?

 

JJD: Yes, There is one God, And we all worship Him, And we all seek Him in our hearts…You and me, and all of Islam, and Christendom, and every Buddhist and Hindu, every human heart seeks Him. We don't understand Him the same way

 

*Q*: he begetts not nor is he begotten???? what abt that

 

JJD: What about it?

 

*Q*: i said what abt the staement in verse that he begets not, nor begotten? was jesus not begotten son

 

JJD: I accept that you have your own beliefs, do you accept that I have mine?

 

*Q*: ok…next Quran says, "No son did Allah beget, Nor is there any god Along with Him: (if there were Many gods), behold, each god Would have taken away What he had created, And some would have Lorded it over others! Glory to Allah! (He is free) From the (sort of) things They attribute to Him!" [Al-Qur’an 23:91]

 

JJD: You're still trying to persuade me that Muslim is the one true faith….I want to know what it means to be Muslim

 

*Q*: no one can force u 2 b muslim

 

JJD: I want to know how God is present in the Muslim faith. I don't want to know that every other faith is wrong

 

*Q*: thats what i was telling u, n u interupted me

 

JJD: Perhaps you are the wrong one to teach me?

 

*Q*: i was just quoting the Quranic vrses to u, i never said to change ur belief

 

JJD: Ok

 

*Q*: i told u i m not teaching u

 

JJD: Forgive me….Go ahead, proceed

 

*Q*: dontdo that 2 me, why ssaying to forgive? u get offensive by ur self n again let down me by saying to forgive

 

JJD: I mean, I apologize

 

*Q*: brother what u r? it hard to understnd u…i apoligize if ur heart…i was just doing what u told me to share Quranic verses

 

JJD: ok go ahead, tell me what you believe

 

*Q*: i must tell u b4 dont cheat me…i hope christianity also preaches that

 

JJD: I want to know what YOU believe, I want to know why you believe it and how it leads you to peace

 

*Q*: dont waste my time, if u r muslim

 

JJD: I'm not Muslim, and I won't be a Muslim, But if you can help me understand what it means to be a Muslim, and I can tell others what it means to be a Muslim, how can that be a bad thing?

 

*Q*: fine…i continue…"There is nothing Whatever like unto Him, And He is the One That hears and sees (all things). And most of them Believe not in Allah Without associating (others As partners) with Him!"

 

JJD: Can I ask you something?

 

*Q*: sure

 

JJD: Can you tell me what it means to be a Muslim without quoting the Koran? How does it make you feel? How does Allah show Himself to you in your every day life?

 

*Q*: As u feel abt God, always he is there

 

JJD: Now you and I are talking about the same thing

 

*Q*: what evr ur belief is

 

JJD: He is always there

 

*Q*: but people have manipulated his truth, the inner feeling is always same. He says in Quran "If thou ask them, Who Created them, they will Certainly say, ‘Allah’: how Then are they deluded Away (from the Truth)?"

 

JJD: Does God speak to you ONLY through the Quran? Does He not speak to you in your heart? And if I tell you that God also speaks to me in my own heart, is that not the common ground that we spoke of earlier??

November 30, 2006
 

Beth:  Can i ask a philosophical question?

 

JJD:  You can ask me anything, you know that

 

Beth: Do you beleive that if you become a follower of Jesus that you can walk away from Jesus and if you died then you'd go to Hell?

 

JJD: Well, how do you become a follower of Jesus?

 

Beth: By accepting Him into your heart and following His instructions and loving Him…asking Him to forgive all your sins

 

JJD: Well, I think all the things you describe indicate a desire to follow Him

 

Beth: Yes but what if something tragic happens, like you lose your mother at a young age and you blame God and walk away from Him?

 

JJD: What you're describing is a person who has conflicting desires....a desire to follow God and please God, and a desire for control of their own lives….Don't you think?

 

Beth: Yes….so if they walk away from Him because they lost their mom and think God is at fault and died would they go to Hell? Just your personal opinion

 

JJD: Well...I don't think it's a simple question....because I don't think that judgment is something that God imposes on us….I think heaven is entering into God's presence, and anyone who is seeking Him will find Him….

 

Beth: yes, that's a good point

 

JJD: I think people who will go to "Hell" are the ones who choose Hell….The ones who don't recognize God for Who He is

 

Beth: Yes, i agree

 

JJD: So, I think someone can choose to turn their back on God

 

Beth: I think so too

 

JJD: But I don't think that being angry at God is the same thing as turning your back on Him…I think being angry at God is foolish, but in a way it's sometimes necessary for our faith to grow. At least when we're angry at Him we acknowledge Him…Don't you think?

 

Beth: Yes and you've got a good point about letting your faith grow during those periods when you're angry at God...i mean there isn't many kids who haven't been angry with their parents

 

Beth: Its the same with God?

 

JJD: It is…It's also the same as marriage. People don't belong to each other....being married doesn't give us the right to abuse and neglect each other

 

Beth: No, not at all

 

JJD: We have to choose each other every day…But if we belonged to each other, we could abuse one another and never get divorced

 

Beth: Yes, you're right

 

JJD: It's the same with God. We have to seek Him every day, every hour, EVery decision we make, We have to CHOOSE Him

 

Beth: That's really cool too....i think people get so wrapped up in religion that they aren't seeking Jesus

 

JJD: That's exactly right, You get it

 

Beth: Yea, i've just been getting it the past 2 years since i've started joining in at the christian club, InterVarsity here on campus, it's really the first time that i've ever really delved into the bible and truly got something out of it, and i've been going to church since i was 9

 

JJD: Cool…Church is fine….But I think sometimes we think that faith ends at the church door

 

Beth: Yea, definitely. it's easy to get into that mindset

 

JJD: Anyway its just what I think…You know what's really important in your relationship with God, it's what you think

October 29, 2006

An internet dating site matched me up with this person, lending credence to my theory that internet dating sites don't work...
 

JJD: Do you consider yourself a spiritual person?

 

Jessica: Well I work on my relationship each and every day with God. I am Assembly of God. We’re Pentecostal. We are a very "alive" church. We speak in tongues (i don't have that gift yet), we raise our hands, stuff like that

 

JJD: I see. What would you think of a Christian who went to services at a Buddhist temple?

 

Catalina: do you now?

 

JJD: I didn't say I did. I just said for example

 

Catalina: oh

 

JJD: What if a Christian went to services at a Buddhist temple, what would you think?

 

Catalina: I don't think that is right

 

JJD: Why?

 

Catalina: because buddhist believe in their own God

 

JJD: So you think it would just be wrong, no matter what?

 

Catalina: yes

 

JJD: ok….(looooong pause)….you're not curious why I ask that, or what I think about it?

 

Catalina: Well I know you have a reason, I was waiting on you to tell me your reason

 

JJD: I just wondered what you would say.....if it would occur to you to ask why a Christian would be going to a Buddhist temple, or what Buddhists believe, or if you would even think about it, pray about it, before you just said no.

 

Catalina: tell me. you must be involved somehow

 

JJD: It's just hard to explain, but I think that God speaks to everyone, it's just that very few people listen

 

(Note: It’s not that hard to explain, really. It’s just hard to explain to her.)

 

Catalina: true

 

JJD: People think that they already know God, so they don't need to listen....or they simply don't care what God has to say because they have the illusion of self-reliance

 

Catalina: that is true

 

JJD: What if God told you to go to a Buddhist temple? to find out what they were about, maybe?

 

Catalina: I won't

 

JJD: ever?

 

Catalina: no, never.

 

JJD: What if God told you to speak a certain word to a certain person at a certain time, and that your speaking to them would be crucial to their spiritual development and how they grow for the rest of their lives, would you do it?

 

Catalina: probably

 

JJD: But not if they're in a Buddhist temple, because you wouldn't go there

 

Catalina: your getting deep

 

JJD: I'm just saying that, by saying "I wouldn't do this" you're limiting God, you're limiting how God can use you. I'm not trying to tell you that what you believe is wrong, or to convert you to Buddhism or anything freaky like that, I'm just giving you an example of how God might call you to do something that doesn't fit with what you already believe....that God is big, much bigger than what we may believe or understand....God speaks to everyone, the Holy Spirit touches everyone, even when they don't believe the proper way or go to the right church or understand certain historical facts the same way we do....all we have to do is listen, to seek Him in our hearts and in our lives, in how we conduct ourselves and treat others....read Romans chapter two and three, if you don't believe it.....this isn't heresy, it's not a threat to your faith, it's a confirmation of your faith.......I believe everything that you do with regard to Jesus and the Bible....I just also believe that God is bigger than any one "religion" and in the end it will matter less what we believed intellectually than how we answer the question "Who do you say that I am??" That if someone is honestly, earnestly seeking Him, to do His will, that they'll recognize Him.....and yes, that includes people of all faiths and cultures and philosophies

 

Catalina: I see your point

 

JJD: so what do you think about it?

 

Catalina: I see your point. Your just very deep. I’m not that deep

 

JJD: What do you mean you're not that deep?

 

Catalina: Meaning I am not that deep. I am a simple girl

 

JJD: explain please

 

Catalina: I don't get into philosophies and stuff like that

 

JJD: But you believe something

 

Catalina: yes

 

JJD: Do you not know why you believe?

 

Catalina: I believe in the Lord because I don't want to go to hell

 

JJD: What do you think Hell is?

 

Catalina: a hot place

 

JJD: I see. It doesn't seem like you like to talk about this

 

Catalina: because I am not a deep person. I believe in what I believe in and that's that.

 

JJD: ok…so you’re as smart as you ever want to be, you know everything right now that you ever want to know? You don’t ever need to challenge yourself, or expand your way of thinking, learn anything new? Ever ask why or how, face resistance, abandon ideas that might not work, seek the truth beyond what you already know?

 

Catalina: No. I don’t think so. I’m not sure what any of that means, but I think you’re just trying to trick me.

April 16, 2006

Just some girl who started talking to me online one day. This is actually parts of two conversations I had with her, and I started going through to clean it up a little and correct some misspellings, but in the end I decided to leave most of them like they were.
 
I just want to say about this, when this girl started talking to me, I had no intention of converting her or really of even ministering to her at all. I thought she was angry and just wanted to vent, and I was just deflecting her, I thought.
 
And, no I haven't heard from her since...

Cat: u believe in god right?

 

JJD: Yes

 

Cat: Why

 

JJD: Why would I not?

 

Cat: y do you I am haven doubts.

 

JJD: What is it making you doubt?

 

Cat: bcoz of everything that is goien on in my life n bcoz I was hurt very bad by a cousin when I was younger

 

JJD: You blame God?

 

Cat: Yes an no

 

JJD: Well tell me about the yes part.

 

Cat: I blame myself, and if I did not do nothen, why would god let it happen?

 

JJD: What would you rather God do?

 

Cat: Not let it happen

 

JJD: In what way?

 

Cat: He knew it was going to happen, why couldnt he stop it?

 

JJD: Your cousin hurt you

 

Cat: Yeah, but why couldnt God stop it?

 

JJD: You're saying that God is responsible

 

Cat: In a way. I aint never hurt noone

 

JJD: Why couldn’t another family member do something? Why couldn't the police? What about the government?

 

Cat: Cuz they are men

 

JJD: They're not all men, but let’s just talk about one issue at a time.

 

Cat: what do you mean?

 

JJD: I mean, do you want the government to be huge and spy on you and control everything you do?? Do you want the police outside your door watching you? Do you want your parents or a boyfriend controlling you and making all your decisions?

 

Cat: No

 

JJD: So you would rather do those things for yourself?

 

Cat: Yes, but thats different.

 

JJD: How?

 

Cat: Becoz I don’t want anyone controlen everything I do

 

JJD: But you want God to.

 

Cat: I just want him to stop people from hurten me.

 

JJD: So you want God controlling everything everyone else does?

 

Cat: Your confusen me

 

JJD: It’s not that complicated. You want God to be in total control of everyone, as long as He’s on your side…you want God to take away your cousin's free will but you don't want Him to take away yours

 

Cat: mine can be takin awy

 

JJD: Is that what you want?

 

Cat: whats that

 

JJD: Are you really willing to give up all of your free will to God??

 

Cat: yes, if it means I won’t be hurt anymore

 

JJD: Five minutes ago you didn't believe in Him

 

Cat: i just don’t want to hurt

 

JJD: no one wants to hurt

 

Cat: but do you think god can help me?

 

JJD: It doesn’t really matter what I think. Do you think he can?

 

Cat: so you think I should believe in God

 

JJD: Why are you asking me? I don’t even know you. Anyway, you just said you wanted to decide things for yourself

 

Cat: i m sorry 4 botheren you

 

JJD: It’s no bother. I’m just not sure what you want me to tell you

 

Cat: rnt u a xtian? R u there?

 

JJD: Yeah, sorry, I’m just having a hard time with this internet shorthand you’re using. I am a Christian, yes.

 

Cat: y don’t u tell me what to believe…other xtians always tell me what to believe

 

JJD: Does that help?

 

Cat: not really….they tell me I m goien to hell and then I feel bad

 

JJD: You want me to make you feel bad?

 

Cat: No ur not that way

 

JJD: You’re freaking me out.. What is it you want me to say?

 

Cat: what I shold believe

 

JJD: What do you want to believe?

 

Cat: I want to believe in Jess int that what u believ

 

JJD: Jess?

 

Cat: Jesus

 

JJD: You want to believe in Jesus?

 

Cat: Yes

 

JJD: Why don’t you then?

 

Cat: I do but don’t you? What do you believe in god?

 

JJD: I believe God is real and I believe that if you seek Him you will find Him, because He’s there to be found  But it’s up to you, you have to decide for yourself. I can’t do that for you.

 

Cat: I have to go